Arrive at a nearby university campus library around 10:00 am. During the walk there I noticed that I would stagger every time I turned my head quickly. Attacks to the head occurred while preparing breakfast, and although I didn't monitor the attacks with a voice recorder I have years of such attacks archived on multiple hard drives and posted as YouTube videos. When I was awakened by painful directed energy attacks at 4:35 am I eventually got up and measured head temperatures. I found big differences between head temperatures and oral temperatures last night, over 4 F°, with head temperatures much hotter than oral. Oral temperatures were actually lower than normal at 5:00 am, by 0.2-0.4 F°, which make me wonder if my body is compensating for a high skin temperature. At oral temperatures below 96.4 F° I think a person is very close to being clinically hypothermic, which is one of the symptoms of severe sleep deprivation. At such low temperatures, which translates into a core body temperature of about 97.2 F°, it's hard not to feel sleepy, because a person is almost in hibernation. My oral temperature ranged between 96.4 and 96.2 between 5:00 and 5:30 am.
Attacks to the head have increased over the past several days, primarily to the forehead region. Last neurology appointment was last week, so the threat of a neurological examination is no longer on the horizon. The neurological exam that I had in October revealed DTRs, or problems with my deep tendon reflex (patella tendon) on my right side, which eventually resolved as the threat of a neurologist ordered EEG and MRI emerged. Both came out mildly abnormal.
I also stopped monitoring my head with a digital voice recorder yesterday to pick up EMI events, because I could not see the point. This change was because I would not have to wear a dumb hat in warm weather to cover up the voice recorder resting on my head, and therefore appear 'deviant'. It should be noted that I have been fairly successful in going rapidly into a somewhat deep mindfulness state whenever attacked, by using the pain to take me there. It may be possible that my torturers are assuming that I won’t be able to go to, and maintain, a state of mindfulness while working on a freelance article, which of course is not true. Or they may be trying to interfere with my ability to complete the article by scrambling my thought processes, which has happened in the past. Or, maybe both.
Having trained myself to associate a painful directed energy attack with a relatively deep state of mindfulness, seems to produce the exact opposite effect of the intended purpose of the directed energy attacks, namely a freaked out, hysterical attempt to prevent what is occurring. Overtime my reactions to the attacks, unless moderated by mindfulness, would of course lead to both the impression of mental illness and actual symptoms of mental illness, separate from any neurological trauma that was caused during the process.
11:21 am – attacks to head have persisted since arriving at the university Library, with the digital voice recorder resting on the table in front of the laptop. The neurological effects are beginning to emerge while simply sitting in the chair, such as dizzy and disoriented, seemingly in response to my composing this blog entry, especially the part about using the pain of directed energy attacks to take me to a state of mindfulness.